it's late. waaay past my bedtime. But wednesday is the "no gym" day so I sleep later.

i've been looking at knitting/crafting blogs and my eyes are literally burning. Now I'm dreaming of having a "crafting room" with a sewing machine at the window. the worst part about this is, we totally have two extra bedrooms. One is a "guest room" (current guest: all of our clean-but-not-folded laundry) and the other is our "office". I call the office the playroom. It is an absolute disaster. I see this pictures of "studios" on blogs and I'm like, "What sort of person are they that they turned that space into a studio and what sort of person am I that I turned it into a disaster?"

and who has time to be good at so many things?

(im so tired.)

I've always loved crafts. In VBS that was my favorite part. Better than the music, better than the games, maybe even better than the snacks.
one of my go-to crafts as a kid was to mix soap flakes, water and food coloring and then form them into "soap balls'. Sophisticated? no. but I remember thinking how amazing it was to make something with my hands and then to give it as a gift. (my apologies to any and all family members who received soap balls from me in lieu of a real gift)

so how come I'm not one of those girls who quits her day job to sell luxery knitted goods from her online business? I don't know. too late, too tired, too lazy.

plus, my "day job" is a craft of its own, and i have to remember to be thankful for that. and for every little thing I learn every little day.

florence and the machine( and the eggnog latte) and a minute to unwind!

how is it already time to Christmas shop?
it's the busy season for hair. I'm sure one day I will really appreciate that. We are starting 6 day work weeks now. I hope I do ok. Here is a secret: I dream of working part time. And I could do that, but I feel lazy. And there is no reason for me to sit around at home. Sometimes I think "Maybe if i had a baby, then people would understand why I don't want to work full time". and then I think, "What a selfish reason to have a baby!"
I'll be honest, I do not want a baby right now. I'll be honest again, I just want some time to knit scarves, grocery shop, bake holiday type things, write my unfinished book and maybe clean the bathroom a little more.

see? these are unimportant things.

" and I am done with my graceless heart, so tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then re-start" I love this CD!

Dan is reading Harry Potter. He likes them...for years I have convinced myself I wouldn't like them but now I am wondering if I should read them.

went to the beach last weekend. I have never seen the ocean in the winter before. Can i say...the beach is one of the only things that is magical in the summer and just as magical in the winter. Why does the ocean make me cry? Why does even thinking about it make me cry? and I guess a better question is...why does Parenthood make me cry? Love that show, but I cry like a baby when I watch it and Dan laughs at me.

I am thankful. Lord, make my heart a thankful one.